The Inevitable

What have I done to deserve this?
Tired eyes and fervent readings,
Promises to excel.. all failed
Dismayed.. Distraught

Shadow in the mind, heart
Asphyxiated feeling,
The gleaming edge of razor
Red I see.. spilling, drowning me!
But I fail.

The moon waxes
Red carpet is my reception now.
In high abode of my fame
Yet, I have failed.
To understand.comprehend
Why did I not realisethe scar on my hand cries out!
Moments of pain.. caused by delusion!

Alas! Had only I realised
I wouldnt be a potential psychopath!
If only I knew
In the end it doesnt even matter